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death and contemplate it for hours by myself. My dreams weren’t the nightmares others used to have, but ra- ther peaceful ones, like the painful struggle of life was over. All that remained was peace. I understood that it wasn’t “normal” and that I was odd for doing so. What I didn’t understand was why I was like this. Since the accident I’ve come to realize that perhaps the reason I don’t fear death is because I have al- ways felt that connection with it or through it. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to understand why I feel this con- nection until I do pass away. However, I have come to recognize that while I do not fear death, I am not going to rush toward it either. Back to Contents 36